What's happening to me?

Iron Maiden · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 5:14 pm

Before you read
NO! DONT TELL ME TO GO TO SEE A MUTHAFUCKING THERAPIST OR TO GET SOME ANGER MANAGEMENT! THATS STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Recently, I've figured out that there is maybe something wrong with me...

First it started when my friends had problems. Generally, I'm someone who highly value my friends and truely care about them. But then I started to not even care about what was happening to them. Some of them were in pain and I was like 'Not my muthafucking problem, Clean your own **** by yourself, ***'...Now I start to become a little agressive, I'll give you few exemple.

Last Friday, The friend of my friend and my friend himself were jokingly messing with me. The friend of my friend throw me some water.
My reaction was:
YOU ******* *********** OF ***! IM GONNA KICK YOUR *** *** MY **** *****!!!!!!!!!!

I come home with my report card, I had 57% (It requires 60% to pass) in french (its English for you) and my mom is like 'Oh thats kind of bad!!!You could have done better!!!' (I know I could, but it was rough)

'YOU ARE BETTER TO NOT TALK! YOU ARE NOT GOING TO SCHOOL ANYWAY!!!!SO SHUT THE **** UP! YOU ARE NEVER **** HAPPY IN ANYTIME, EVEN IF I COULD BRING YOU 99%, YOU WOULD SAY ITS NOT ENOUGH!!!!!!!!!!!

English class, I make one little mistake, My friend say 'Lol you suck!!' jokingly...And I scream 'YOU ARE NOT ANY BETTER ***!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'

Now it gettings worse...Here what happens (To keep their identity secret, I'll use 'J' and 'K'

The same friend (J) : You know, if didnt had my braces, My jaw could be diformated
K : Oh that would have been sad!
Me: Lol, it already had...Your whole face is a disaster! (joking)
K : OH COMON, I'M TIRED OF YOU WHEN YOU MAKE FUN OF PEOPLE!
Me: AND YOU KNOW WHAT? I'M TIRED OF YOU WHEN ARE ALWAYS WHINIG FOR STUPID REASONS LIKE THIS. ALWAYS CRYING LIKE A **** BABY. LOOKS LIKE YOU ARE HAVING YOUR PERIOD EVERY SINGLE SECONDS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Silence)

*Being ready to leave*
K to J : Oh god, He annoys me as hell! (Speaking of me)
Me : AT LEAST, YOU HAVE TO **** GUTS OF TELLING ME DIRECTLY. YOU ARE A **** HYPOCRITE! IM ***** OFF WITH YOU, YOUR CONSTANT COMPLAINING, YOUR WHINING AND YOUR SUPREME ARROGANCE!!!!!!! DONT YOU EVER, EVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEER ENCOUNTER MY LIFE AGAIN!!!!!!!! DO YOU HEAR ME? DO YOUR HEAR MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE?!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

And know what is worst? 'K' was the girl I used to love before (Not anymore)

...And 'J' is one of my childhood friend(I was at elementary school when I first met him)

(All the problems are clean now, I made it clear in every of thoses exemple, I'm ok now...I just want to understand why I'm so angry)

You probally know me as someone like 'Flamming king' or something like that...But theses days, I just dont reconize myself...I am just a stranger...Looks like I hate every single thing in the world!
But I truely dont understand!

What was that? What's happening to me?

Adbot · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 5:14 pm

power crazy · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 5:17 pm

Do you do drugs? Also maybe just think a little more around your friends or be a little more laid back/ don't care what people think of you.

Iron Maiden · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 5:30 pm

rotfl no XD I never took any drug! And I NEVER drank alchool, Not even in a party XD

And Yes, I do try to not care about what people tell me, But it usally never works.

Alex · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 6:02 pm

Seriously... If that's how you feel and how you react towards everything, you have issues.

And in this case, anger management is far from stupid.

colinsoccer123 · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 6:22 pm

First of all learn how to spell "******". We teens are moody and you'll get over it you don't have a problem.

Yazackie90 · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 6:34 pm

Tell someone besides us, like your mom.

Adbot · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 6:34 pm

jointntoday · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 6:44 pm

yeah, i've found my self snapping easy to...it just happens.

CreepyPirate · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 7:02 pm

Grow up springs to mind. I expect a a toddler to throw his toys out the pram not a teenager.

Think before you act is the best advice you can get.

Rad · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 7:04 pm

power crazy wrote:

Do you do drugs?

He says no but I think we all know the answer.. Lol

Anubis · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 7:27 pm

learn to chill out, lay off the swearing, and don't take your anger out on your friends for god's sake :/

power crazy · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 7:40 pm

You should take your anger out on something else. You could exercise more often to blow off some excess energy. Or do what most people do and play some violent video games

jointntoday · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 10:03 pm

hmm, some how i fail to see how makeing fun of a person with anger issues is going to make it better.

Chief Snake · **Posted:** February 17th, 2009, 10:41 pm

Well, the first step is acknowledging you have a problem. So you're on the right path.

As far as what's happening to you goes, maybe it's just the combination of all those things stressing you out - first getting the water thrown on you followed by the bad report card could have put you in a particularly vulnerable state, so you were easily pushed over the edge. It's probably quite a normal scenario except your fuse is shorter than others' and so you're a little more easily angered. Some people are just naturally like that.

Firstly I would take on board what your friend told you (about making fun of people). Just ease off a bit, lighten up. Make a point of giving your friends praise and congratulations and stuff like that at least until they notice you're making the effort.

Secondly I have an idea, and it's not just because almost every second word you write is a swear word.

Swearing can be easily attributed to and loosely tied to anger, and if you can learn to control your mouth you will be able to learn to control your temper.
So my idea for you is to aim to go a week without swearing. Just a week, but not a single swear word. You can think things, just don't say them. Even argue with people if you must (however arguing is negative and you should try not to), just don't swear. If you accidentally let something slip then start again. Keep going until you manage to do a full week, and then you can be yourself again and see if it made any difference.

Just a thought, but I truly think it would benefit you.

Phresh Phob · **Posted:** February 18th, 2009, 1:07 am

Well, I think you're just getting tired of your life. The same old school, activities and friends. My suggestion is to try and take on some new hobbies and meet some new friends, try and deviate a little from your daily routine. Also, maybe try and find a new way to take out your anger than to cuss.

Shreder · **Posted:** February 18th, 2009, 11:01 am

My changes in my personality in life always revolved around girls and smoking.
I can't seem to find what initiated your anger.