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'Change' should be my middle name. I have developped different aspects let's see how it turned out...
Five years ago I was in 8th grade. I was a kid trying to be hardcore/cool and wanted to learn how to be respected.
I became what I always wanted. Cool, always has an impossible but still funny story to tell, a master of crack jokes, the most trustable friend. Expert in lie detection, I also reached peak of human psychology and will power. I'm mentally unbreakable, I resist any insult, any obstacle that life throws me, no matter what it is. My greatest pride are my detective skills, I earned the title of 'World's Greatest Detective' (lol batman fan alert) aswel as the title of 'One of (if not THE) the smartest man I've ever met' (that's what my teacher said)
I can resolve any situation, an highly developped sense of perception, an almost impossible to match deduction sense. Add to that the fact that I can adapt myself to any situation and I can do almost anything on my own without anyone.
Finally, my reputation I took over 7 years to build. When you're my friend, I'm the cool and funny guy that we like. But if you're not my friend, this is where it's interesting. I strike terror into the heart of men. Nobody dares to approach me because they're too afraid to. Nobody tries to make fun of me because they're scared. I AM FEAR ITSELF!!!!
What I think is amazing is my evolution and all I've been through.
Five Years ago ''The Survival'': Wannabe Kid that wants to earn respect but can't because everybody think he's a loser. Self esteem level: 0%. Very low social life, no real friends. Low intelligence. (if I compare to today)
Turning point would be when I met my exclusive clique. A small group of friends. I never had that before. My self-trust was growing slowly.
Four Years ago ''The Dark Reign'': Rising force but it's been very harsh. I did something bad on that year. I won't say what it is because I can't. After that, everybody was respectful toward me. They were afraid of me. This is where I learned my favorite saying: 'Respect comes with Fear'. My friendship with my clique grew strong. This was also the year I met who I consider my only true love. What happenned? You'll see in the next year.
Three Years ago ''Nothing Else Matters'': The Fall. I lost my lover. She's gone forever. She ran with a gangsta-like douchbag. After losing the love of my lifetime I vowed to avenge myself by declaring war to crime. I entered into what I call ''The Black Era''. I was a depressed man who thought life wasn't worthing it anymore. Soon after that came ''The Civil War'' where my clique separated in two clans. The clique was broken, everyone was gossiping about everyone. Person A was in conflict with Person B. Person C with A but not B, etc...
The Civil War ended slowly but the Black Era stayed all year long.
One Year Ago ''Legend of the Dark Knight'' - This is where I reach the peak after hitting rock bottom. My popularity increases into now two cliques. Seeing I was on my final year of high school, my self trust went up and thought I could do anything. And **** I was right. I had it all: the friendship with my clique (the lineup has changed somewhat, some left and new ones came in) was stronger than ever, tons of girls thought I was amazing, success at school with no grades under 80%, I became the first on my family's history to graduate. I learned every skills I listed before such as: Lie Detection, Detective Skills, etc.
I reached psychological invulnerability and everything that goes with it.
In the end, I made it. I finally became what I always wanted to be: Badass.
Present's Day ''Knightfall'' - I was evicted from my house. I'm now on a lost, horrible and incredibly lame city far away from my former. I lost everything. My spirit is breaking. No friends, no money, no job. All that I built has been destroyed. I'm now weaker than ever, physically and psychologicly broken, my self esteem is at about -1 000 000% and I feel like dying on the inside. But I know one thing: I survived all my life long. Surviving is what I always do. Just wait until I return, I'll be stronger than ever.
It's funny to see how someone can be at the top of the world and suddently fall to hit rock bottom. But I know this: Before we rise, we have to fall. I will come back, I will return, because I'm unbreakable, I am THE DARK KNIGHT!
To finally answer the question. Am I happy the way I turned out after 5 years? Yes. Even thought I'm in a harsh situation at the moment I think what I learned through the ages are precious gift that I will need in life. What I learned is: I can be who I want to be. I can do anything I wish. Just believe.
I never expected this path, but it has to be this way to rise again.
Cool story huh?
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It ain't about how hard you hit. It's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward; how much you can take and keep moving forward.
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8th grade wasn't much better, but I had a small group of friends by then 
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