I need your help...More than ever

This problem has been torturing me since June. I'm currently renting an house, Problem is : The house ''owner'' has put my house on sale. I couldn't care less about moving away if there was two another problems : I dont **** want to move far away from my friends,going into a sucky city where I will know nobody AND I will lose my neighbor, The woman I love more than anything in the world.

Since June, My family and myself have been looking for new houses, and I did everything, EVERYTHING, to make a total disaster. I destroyed the walls of an house we were visiting, Willingly broke my parents' computer, refused an offer of $5 000 to make me go away, etc. I did EVERYTHING that I could to stay as long as possible.
Today, some *** have been visiting my house, AND I'M **** SCARED AS HELL! I hate to admit, but this is the first time ever I'm so scared. I really really dont want to lose my friends, since I'm the most anti-social person on earth, I wont be able to make news anywhere I will go. And I friggen dont want to lose that girl, It would be way too much for what it remains of my heart. I wont be able to handle one more shot like this.

I've always been mentally strong...Maybe unbreakable...Say Invincible...Until now. My greatest ally (my brain) has started to let me down, I no longer know what to do. I've been thinking about crazy things recently (I wont mention anything) and my mood has never been so down.

I never talk about my problems, Which is becoming unbearable for my mind.
I never ask for help...But now I desperatly need it now, more than you could ever imagine...

Someone?

Turned down five grand? Whew.
Move in with this girl that you love so much.
-or-
Propose to her and make plans to get married and move in together.
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Have her move with you to this new place somewhere.
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If none of the above work, I'll think of more for you.

Good luck.

Ask for the $5000 and go and rent a place of your own nearby. Get a job and try and get somewhere with this girl.

I am not sure of a few things:
Can you get a job soon?
Live by yourself?
Live with her?
Give a little more info on what you can do.

No offense but i think you are over reacting a bit. talk to your parents about where they are planning on moving to ask if they can put effort into finding a new house near where you currently live ( by near i mean within a few km.) at the very least try and stay in the same city, you need to calm down and accept the fact that eventually you are going to have to move to a different house but that doesn't mean you will be moving far far away or even out of the city you live in now. plus like creepy said plenty of other people to get to know and chicks to chase in your future.